There's A Monster in the Mirror

As uncomfortable as looking in the mirror might be right now, perhaps the better question to ask is how you are feeling, functioning, etc. Do you have enough energy? Are you sleeping well?

If you are eating healthy food regularly and feeling fine, then perhaps this is simply what your body wants to be doing right now. If you're not feeling well, then perhaps a visit to the doctor is in order, if possible.

Also, if you can afford it, maybe throw some avocado into your salads for good, yummy fat, or buy frozen guacamole.

I hope you're feeling better soon!

I actually have more energy then normal which is really funny because now I am getting all this stuff done when before I was staying home and nothing was getting done. I'm sleeping ok, the same as usual. The only thing I have noticed is my eye sight is blurry. But I think maybe it's been that way for a long time and I didn't notice because I didn't need to read things from far away until I started doing a few things that work where I really need good eye sight. I also have been drinking tons of coffee which is bad for eye sight. I probably should try to incorporate more avocado into my diet. They are filled with so much good stuff. I wish I could just be ok with however my body looks, but I'm not. I know I am naturally thin and have a high metabolism, but the way I look is really scary.

It takes a frustratingly long time to put weight on once you've lost it so I know how it feels. Brooke if you can I'd check and see if anything is going on w/your thyroid? However if all is fine w/your thyroid, I wonder if you're one of those women who gets real thin while nursing? When your baby weans you may put some weight back on? Another thing, from your blog it doesn't sound lke you eat alot of grains? I know that personally if I don't eat plenty of grains my weight quickly drops. (I'm naturally thinnish too.) If I were you I'd be scarfing on a few muffins or rolls as snacks every day w/tons of butter or coconut oil which I sometimes use like it's butter and it is really good fat-tening, tasty and really good for you. I went on an Atkins-like diet (aka very little bread) a few years back, and in under a month I got so skinny. Another thing--for thin people I think NOT exercising actually keeps you small. At least that is how I am -everyone is different I know but personally I dare not slack on exercise or I get skinnier than I want. I try to do weight bearing exercise too (like lunges/pushups) or free weights, as well, to keep my muscle mass and weight up. I know you're busy and sometimes with barely enough time to eat a decent meal and so I think the busy-ness, and nursing, and skipping meals may all just be catching up with you, and if compounded by stress, you sound like me where under stress we lose, instead of gain, weight.

Thanks for the advice. I am trying to absorb all of this and think about what I should do or a reason for all of this. I wanted to scream at work today because I keep picking up other people's work that they are not doing and I just keep thinking I am literally wearing myself thin.