Writing& Feminism.

I am a writer; I write poetry about my feelings. About my despair, and about my hate. About who I am, and how I've pulled off the foolishness of falling in love. About what, exactly, I have become.

I write short stories about travellers, I write short stories about time-travel and education. I write novellas about war, novellas about killers and those who stand against them; I write novellas about the after life, and the end of the world.

But I don't write about feminism. I don't write from a feminist point of view. I write about men and women, priests and priestesses. I write about women who are tall and thin, who have seen, and caused, death.

I write about men who have found aliens, men who have, with their companions, earned their own star systems, created their own empires. I write about men who go to war; men who accompany half-dragons, girls because it's based off the beginning of a role player with a girl as the main character. I write about men who take a dagger in the shoulder to save people; women who ask the gods for help to heal those men. I write about people who live, have lived, die, have died.

But I write these things as you would write any other. I write about how, for example, Dracon turned Raychel into a half dragon, and I write about how he then spoke to her in a temple. I write about how Keith worries for Raychel, and Mirith worries further. I write about the elf who is in league with the crystal god, and Banon who will go to any lengths to defend honour.

Never once have I written feminism. The only reason I write most of my main characters as female is because I identify more easily with them. I could more easily see what they are feeling. I write about women who aren't stereotypical but not all that stereotype-challenging either. I write about the Fatalis Internati, and I write all my own stories.

My poetry is rarely feminist; unless it's written for a specific reason or zine. It's just about me, and suffering, and pain, and death, and tears. It's about sorrow and misery, not ever self-inflicted or inflicted by others than the gods (except the one about a murderous avenger and the one about a psychopathic serial killer.)

Point is-why not? Why, when I identify as feminist here-but not in RL (the real world, the not-computerized version of the world-do I not write as a feminist? I write as a woman, sure, but I don't write books about women overcoming rape or negative self-image or fighting patriarchy or...anything. I rarely write books entirely equality-based, as most of them are fantasies, which puts them mostly in the past of worlds similar to ours; it's occasional that there will be an equality base.

WTH? Why is this? I'm never inspired by feminism to write anything other than blogging and tangents-what you see here. Looking at others, they've written feminist poetry, feminist stories and shared them. Only religious scripts for me are ever fully feminist. Those I will never share with anyone except those interested in my religion.

Does it mean I'm not a 'feminist writer'? Does it mean that I'm a 'notgood' feminist? SHOULD I be writing stories about these things, since I feel so strongly about them? Even if I'm not inspired to write a fiction about it? Should I be writing from a feminist, or equalist, whichever word, perspective? Is there something wrong with my female characters being martyrs and my male characters being emperors because Daddy couldn't role play a girl? Is there something wrong with not being able to understand the other gender? Isn't it funny how I identify more with 'male' stereotypes then with 'female' stereotypes but I can't write as a guy because I don't know how strong their physical body influences them? In short, is there something wrong with me never writing feminist?