My parents and the battle

Well first, I am really sorry. I know that I have not been on, but, well let's just say that I have been dealing with some really horribal stuff. You see, I have been seeing a cousoler for almost a year, twice a month. And my dad found out when my mom had to do her witness list for court. And I sighned a limited release for her to talk to him, but only about his recomendations and diagnosis. But apprently thats not enought for her. She wants a unlimited release so she can get EVERYTHING. I have went thru this before and she told my dad and i refuse to sit there and have my dad scream and yell at me. He has done it before and I know my dad well enought to know that he will do it again. Thats the diffrece between my mom and dad. My dad will start screaming and yelling at you, without a explanation. My mom wont. She will take the time to listen. To be honest, at first I did want to live with my mom, when her boyfreind was here. He used to mentally and emotionally abuse me and my brother used to physically abuse me, until my sisters boyfriend actually was my brother that is eight years older, stronger, and bigger than me, punch me in the stomach just because I didnt want to take out the trash that he was supposed to take out. But my mom fixed all of that. She lost the lose boyfriend and my sisters boyfreind fixed my brother. Now i want to be with my mom, but my dad is deaf to what I say. i dont know what I am going to do. Well, i will be back.... Loves you all lots, Keera