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OK, I am really sorry that I have not been on at all in a really long time. I've been real busy with my school work and my parents and then my boyfriend and final exams in all of my classes. You know how if you stub you toe when you get up that it's been a bad start to the day? What if your boyfreind broke up with you in a EMAIL! Yep, Leo, (thats his nick name) broke up with me in a email. I got up this morning and I was a message from him and then when I went to respond, he deleted it! When I got to school I went up to him and asked him why he didnt just break up with my to my face or at least the phone? His response? That he was too busy.

We were not together for a long time, only a few months, but I loved him. And, I thought he loved me I guess. Nick and I were a good team in the beginning, we both loved many of the same things, he was supportive of me with my health problems and of my sometimes insane family. But it didn't last as long as I thought, and hoped it would. Nick changed the moment I told him I was a survivor; he thought it was something that meant I was ill, or damaged, or sick. I know these things are tough on the people we love, so I gave it as much time as he needed, but the Nick I knew never came back. He started to get really violent, and hit me, and keep me from going out with other people, my friends, because he said I was not well. But for whatever reason I still loved him even when he hurt me.

On 30th September I move into my accommodation and start university. I can't wait! My room is ensuite, brand new and luxurious and from the moment I move in my Freshers week will be non stop, including a cross dress fancy dress night. It should be great fun, I'm already planning various fancy dress outfits.

I'm so very excited about all this, it's everything I want and I want to make the most of it. However, if there's one thing holding back my excitement it's this. Going off to university will mean the first (significant) move away from a boy who's been in my life for the past 2 years, mostly as a boyfriend but at least as a very close friend. He loves me and thinks we should always be together, and for him, the distance is just an obstacle we can work around. Visiting each other, phone calls, the internet are all we need in his eyes to bide the time until we're back together again. But this is all a problem for me. Why?

It really just is not fair, and it really makes me mad. You never realize the full extent of the injustices until you experience them personally.

Typical teenage problems.

I deeply love my boyfriend of three months. But his father and stepmother do not like me. I know people can have high standards, can not like people who laugh a lot. I know people can not like people of different sexual orientations, with different lifestyles. It’s the normal thing for some people to be discriminatory. But I find the fact that his parents do not like me deeply annoying and disturbing because they have not met me. I have never met his parents. My boyfriend has told me that his parents are aggravated because they have not met me, but they are also aggravated because every time my boyfriend and I have organized a meeting they do not want to meet me.